This is nothing more than a place to put some of my more troubling thoughts or emotions that have been keeping me up at night, and I’m not sure anyone will even read this or care about what it has to say. Either way it’s served its purpose.
I came across that video we made seven years ago in my basement. We were making an action movie starring Aladdin and his princess in a doll house. It had a brief commercial break featuring elmer’s glue and Snoke-a-cola(?). You kept zooming in on my teeth and face, and I shied away due to my even then severe self-consciousness. At some point you shouted “Everquest rocks!”. Watching it brought back the feeling that I was back in those days and although I was incredibly goofy awkward and more than a little chubby after a years worth of homeschooling I was happy. I always looked up to you, I still lurk you every once in awhile to see what you’re up to. I haven’t felt as close to anyone as I did back then. Even if it was awkward seeing you at first, an hour together and we were as close as ever. Sure I have friends now, but none who truly empathize with me, and I think that’s what I’m missing the most. That’s the source of all my nostalgia, why anything that even hints at happiness makes me yearn for those days again. As stupid and as painful to watch as that video was it let me revel in nostalgia and pretend we were friends again. I hope you’re happy.
