I have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mineI have to stop letting other people’s emotions affect mine. OK.
I know this and yet IT NEVER SINKS IN. I want to just let go and do whatever the hell I want without worrying about others, but for some reason I can’t. I’d feel irresponsible if I didn’t take others into account, and yet it’s psychologically damaging. I was taught from a young age not to brag about anything ever, and it’s now progressed to the point where I don’t like to take credit for anything. This leads to me not having a reputation for anything and as a result I feel somehow less than everyone and this in turn starts the cycle all over again. I’m going to give a great effort from now on to say whatever’s on my mind regardless of what it may mean to others and not worry about making anyone happy. I was brought up to be kind and generous but it’s just not realistic, and I realize now that that’s not what people actually like.
